Ego Ego is grey. Grey in its darker forms. It is like cement. Like a huge mass of dry cement stuck on the floor of our mind. Obstructing our ways and hurting us everytime we pass through.

Ego is demanding. It demands that each and everything in the existance, salutes us rather worships us for then they cannot refuse to whatever we say and achieve complete freedom. Egoistic behaviour is simply making a fool of ourselves for ego is the son of ignorance.

Ego speaks. It says ""I" am the best. What are you ? You are nothing". It says I am better than you. It says I am luckier than you. It says I can think better than you.

Ego, If one sees closely, has got only two chairs to sit. Luck and knowledge. I am better-looking than you. I am richer than you. I am from a better background than you. I am from a better place than you. I am stronger than you. Mostly, Ego of luck; I am more intelligent than you. I can do this better than you. I can get more marks than you. I am a better poet than you. I have the power to do this and you dont. I am more experienced than you. Mostly, Ego of knowledge. In most cases a mixture of luck and knowledge incites in us a feel of superiority over the other. Ego can also sit on modesty. Some try to show how humble they are. But that humility is hypocritical.

Killing ego, I admit, is hardfought. I am amazed to see when I see that the most destitute of people possess in them this feeling of superiority. I do not criticize anyone for that for I am in the same phase myself.

Ego and self-respect. Where is the line to be drawn ? This question has confused a lot many. Ego bothers what others think and wants others to think better of myself though I may not be so. Self-respect is what one thinks of oneself. Self respect is a feeling in which you choose to be free and are able to fight whoever causes a hinderance in your freedom and way of thought forcefully. Ego and self-respect are different domains.

Argument. Arguments are seldom useful. After an argument, neither I change my way of thinking, neither you do. It is just that our egos grow. And then ego restricts our knowledge. It prohibits us to learn more. It tells us "you know it all.. you have no need to learn!". Virtues are like a fountain. They go up with some pressure but the gravity of ego pulls them back. Flattery, in this world, shall not cease to exist. Dishonest praise about oneself causes one to believe that one's better than one actually is and we start considering others inferior.

Ego sees no relation. It sees no mother, no father, no friend, no brother. It sees only 'I'. It causes anger and false happiness. Ego is like sweet poison and the false happiness is like the sweet in it but all it is capable of giving us... is pain.

The remedy lies in, again, the removal of ego's dad, Ignorance. When we realize how small and insignificant we are from the bottom of our heart, we start realizing how wrong we were with ego. We start understanding how much pain ego had caused us. Ego is so intelligent, it pangs us and doesn't even let us know who did it.

Ego does not let one remove his ego. It is so rigid. If one considers the thought, of truth being, that we are so insignificant, ego quickly voids that and pushes our mind to wander in some other direction. It is so rigid.
It is as rigid as a huge mass of cement. It is really grey, in its darker shades.

And ya, it takes a big enough ego to spot if someone else has a big one.  ¶ 4:17 PM